Two years ago today, cancer stole my best friend...my Mom.
While I could talk forever about those days, hours, minutes and seconds, I would really like to take a step back and look at where I find myself two years later. Of course, this day stings more than most. And those who have been through it know that every day stings. I wish with every part of my being I could call my Mom, that I could hear her voice one more time, that I could feel her arms wrap around me. It's a loss so profound, there are no words to convey.
But I've always felt it's really not about the cards you're dealt...it's about how you play your hand. After watching my Mom go through years of treatment only to lose her battle, I often had friends tell me "you're doing so well with this, you're so strong". First of all, clearly, they had not and do not see my weak moments...tearful phone calls to best friends, crying in the middle of a crowded bar, or needing to leave work just because she had more bad news from the doctor.
But at the end of the day, I have always said that I have two choices. I can either curl up into a ball, feel sorry for myself and pout about the incredible unfairness of how fate picked my Mom out of all the people on this earth. OR I can make the best of the situation and turn some of this awfulness into good.
Two years later, Brave Box is now a real, tangible, product that eases the discomfort of those still fighting. It was only an idea less than six years ago when my Mom was first diagnosed. For four years, I thought about ways I could ease her struggle. Every part of me wanted to take away her suffering. I took note of her favorite products, the items that brought her comfort. Then, finally, about six months ago, I took the plunge. I built up the courage, ignored all the reasons why it wouldn't work, brainstormed a name, designed a box, built my own website and ordered in bulk. Now here we are. Two years ago today, my world was crashing down. Today, I'm in a MUCH better spot, hoping to provide a presence (through a box, through this blog, through community involvement) that allows me to help as many people afflicted by cancer as possible.
I hope moving forward, this blog serves as a place of knowledge and inspiration, not only for those fighting cancer but also for those who want to know how they can help. It's incredibly easy to feel helpless when watching a loved one fight this disease. Let's work together, as a team, to take some of that helplessness away and bring back some strength to the fight.